There She Goes

Somebody, Another You

2010-08-31T13:04:00.003+07:00

Somebody break my heart
It hurts
Then you came into my life
It's beautiful
You took me away from those memories
It's a magical
You're the sweet escape
You fill the emptiness inside
I've fallen into you
I care for you
And you too
As a friend, I know
Eventually you break my heart too
It hurts
I think I need another you
To take me away and escape from you
Somebody, another you
I hope he looks like you
~ Rindsberry

Selamat Datang, Bulan

2010-08-26T17:24:00.002+07:00

Kaki dingin.
Badan lemes.
Bibir kering.
Perut nggak enak.

I Can't

2010-08-25T23:44:00.001+07:00

No.
I can't stop it. I can't. I just can't.

I Thought I Lost You

2010-08-19T02:04:00.000+07:00

I can't get myself to sleep now. Just thought about something. Actually, I really don't want to think about this but my thought is what it is.

I thought I lost you.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
~ Creep, Radiohead

Twenty Something

2010-08-01T16:45:00.003+07:00

Time flies
When you're having fun
You wake up
Another year is gone
You're twenty-one
~ Happy Birthday, The Click Five

Happy birthday to me! I'm 21 now.. Starting my twenty-something life. Well, now reminiscing of what I have done for the past one year.

Too much problem. Too much drama. Too much pain. Problem, best friends, fight, tears, and escape. Also there are lots of unexpected things happened. Crush, perfection, stupid scenarios, one of those days, and something. That's it. I just mention what popped into my head right now.

For my twenty-something life. I don't expect anything. I don't wanna be disappointed anymore because of the false hope, too high expectation, and something like that. It will feel like a gift when you get something good you don't expect, eh?

And for the last. Birthday wishes... I wish I could always finish off all the things I ever started, everything.

False Hope Makes All the Wrong Feels Right

2010-07-30T11:25:00.002+07:00

There are some days that I feel so lonely and other days that I feel so in love.

There are times when I'm so upset but then I see you, and everything's fine. Somehow your existence is worth it, really.

It's you, it's you, you make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything
~ Everything, Michael Buble

Finally

2010-07-22T22:54:00.000+07:00

Alhamdulillah.... My internship report has already been approved. I finally got my supervisor's signature. Also I've bought a ticket for going back home next week. Thanks God, now I just can’t hardly wait for the flight. ☺

Anyway, butterflies are coming around again. Couldn’t explain more but it makes me feel good. Sometimes, I need to feel just like this, and it’s enough. Well done, stupid scenario.

He was sunshine
I fell over my feet
Like bricks underwater
~ Oxygen, Colbie Caillat

Pretty Lazy Day

2010-07-20T11:30:00.000+07:00

It’s such another lazy day. I don't go to the office again.

Last night I met my supervisor. I went to his house and had a presentation of my report. I thought that my report has been corrected already. Nevertheless it was very incorrect.

"Why didn't you just sign it, Sir? I need your signature, no more."

I'm too lazy to get it done right now. But I know, the more I procrastinate the longer time I have to wait to get back home.

I keep talking to myself, "DO IT. Do it. Do it!"
But my another self always replied, "Ah, let me sitting around for a while, I'll do it later."
"Come on Rind"
"Aaaaaaah... Zzzzz"
"How lazy you are!"
"Am I?"
"YES, YOU ARE!"
"Zzzzz.."
"Hey, don't you listen?"
"ZZZZZZZZZ....."

Another Lazy Monday Morning

2010-07-19T09:34:00.005+07:00

It's yet to be determined
But the air is thick
And my hope is feeling worn
I'm missing home
~ A Plain Morning, Dashboard Confessional

Just sitting around in bed, cuddling with internship report, listening to the music, chilling out while ruined with the thoughts of wanna go home.

I don't go to the office today but my friend does. I told her that I want get done my report just at home, because there will be nothing I can do at the office and I will look so stupid. It's the second time I let her go to the office alone. Sounds egoistic, eh? Yes, I am. I know she'll be bored there.

Oh Report

2010-07-16T09:26:00.000+07:00

Yeah, it's done. But no, it's ALMOST done, still have a bunch of Bahasa Indonesia pages to translate.

I hope I could finish it on Monday. Ah, just can't wait to have my supervisor's signature. Then I'm GOING HOME.

Homesick

2010-07-14T09:57:00.001+07:00

I get so homesick and I want to be home soon.

At first it seems exciting here, traveling to a new place, getting new experience, meeting new people, etc. But when I get here, it's kinda scary. I don't know anyone, anything, and anyplace here.

I used to be happy when caught in the situation like this. It's a something new. I didn't know what's so wrong with me. I feel like I'm alive with somebody's soul here.

Well, all I can do here is just trying to keep myself busy, watching movie (though I've watched it over and over, it sounds desperate!), reading some books I brought from home (trying to read it slowly so the time will fly fast), listening to the music (but I can't play it out loud, I know it will annoys the whole house), and yeah of course working on my internship report.

And I’m surrounded by
A million people
I still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
~ Home, Michael Buble

I want to leave this place. Let me go home.

:(

Hari Pertama Kerja Praktek

2010-07-02T12:10:00.010+07:00

Bekerja di pertambangan harus mengenakan alat-alat keselamatan seperti helm dan sepatu boot. Bahkan di dalem kantorpun harus dipake. Di dalem mobilpun juga. Saya berharap sepatu bootnya agak modis dikit, namun harapan saya sirna. Sepatu boot yang saya pake berwarna coklat muda, dengan bahan kulit. Seandainya ada kuda di sini mungkin saya akan lebih mirip cowboy daripada pekerja tambang.

A Hello from South Sumatra

2010-07-01T10:23:00.001+07:00

Hari ketiga.

Bosen. Gue nggak bisa ngapa-ngapain. Parah. Sepi banget. Gue butuh ngobrol. Gue butuh bercanda. Gue butuh ketawa. Gue butuh hiburan. Hello... anyone? Berasa nggak ada orang di sini.

Pengen cepet pulang. I do really wanna go home right now.

:'(

Something

2010-06-27T15:51:00.004+07:00

I feel so awkward and complicated lately. Well, I'm gonna leave this town. But it seems hard to leave. I feel like there is something undone. I need to do something. I want to see someone before I leave, really! At least I had to say "hello again".

I will leave on Tuesday. I wonder if we could meet today or tomorrow. But I think it's not possible. I don't know but I just really wish I could. Maybe I will just be happy, or something.

It Must Been You

2010-06-18T10:26:00.006+07:00

I heard a song from the radio while I was driving back home from campus.

It Must Been You by Funny Little Dream. It caught my ears at the first time I heard it. It sounds chilly, cute, and catchy.

It must been you
That I've been dreaming
And I've been waiting all day
It must been you
That I've been looking
And I want to tell you the truth
- It Must Been You, Funny Little Dream

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The End of My Sixth Semester

2010-06-06T20:23:00.013+07:00

This is the end of my sixth semester, today was the last class I had. I'm happy though I didn't know how good or bad my score will be. Final exam will be held next week. Just can't hardly wait for it, I mean, can't hardly wait to pass it by. Because holiday is waiting right there. I'm free for about a week before final exam. No class, no teaching. I'm free, ye!

I'm Back

2010-06-05T21:31:00.000+07:00

I've been thinking about writing some new posts in my head over the past few months. And well, I'm gonna write about someone, my everlasting crush.

You may say I'm crazy but yes it's up to you, I don't mind. I just want to write down all of the things I thought about him before the ending of drama happens.

It's gonna be on the next post, titled Everlasting Crush.

Rambling

2010-05-07T00:22:00.001+07:00

It's midnight, and now I can't sleep. I don't want to sleep. I don't know. I worry. :(

Lazy Morning

2010-04-17T11:07:00.003+07:00

Oooouuu.... I really miss this blog. Long time no update. :*

I'm just so bored with the weekend class now that I can't find any interesting things to do to keep me "alive" in this class because I'm so sleepy now, so I open this blog and write, write, write... I wanna sleep. I wanna sleep!

Okay, catch you later, blog. :)

Wow

2009-09-01T00:36:00.001+07:00

Wow, how long it's been since my last update!

Complicated

2009-05-28T23:02:00.002+07:00

I hate this situation. Damn! It becomes exhausting that I'm so upset and keep blaming myself for the way things were because I realized that it was my overreacting and so that I shouldn't be angry or having a go on it like this. I think that I'm not good enough for it and I want different situation so that I need to change.

I know I need to stop waiting, thinking, and worrying. I need to move on. But it's hard, it's like I want to do a big things but feeling like I have no power. I don't know how.

Help me!

Short Update

2009-04-30T10:11:00.000+07:00

Well, I have not posted in a while. Dealing with a lot of assiggnment and report right now. Wishing that's all gonna be okay.

What True Happiness Really Is

2009-02-19T10:19:00.006+07:00

Something was making me happy. It was okay. But now, I just realize it faded away from my life. I'm sick of it and feel like wanna escape from this life. I'm so sick, down, and desperate.

If I could turn back the time, I'd back to time when I was a child. Children, they are who always happy everytime, never worried about anything like life problem, assignments, school, love, and future. And they can easily get happiness, simply by watching their favorite cartoon TV shows or cycling with their friends.

Now, it seems hard to get that true happiness. To me at this time, happiness is to have my personal time, enjoying my hobbies without thinking about that thing. It's just hard actually, really.

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
- Somewhere Only We Know, Keane

But I know, life is too short on this earth. So I have to make the best of it while I'm here and be happy whatever it takes. I must believe in all the things in my life and always pray for it.

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope
- Only Hope, Switchfoot

Shopping Therapy

2009-02-07T07:33:00.000+07:00

You know shopping or retail therapy is a great stress reliever. I'm not sure but whenever I'm feeling down it seems like all my problem can be fixed with clothes, a pair of shoes, bag, book, or CD. I'm not saying that money can buy happiness but it always put me in a better mood.

I shop everytime I get really stressed and it works. Just think about what will satisfy me regardless of whether it's not a want or a need then go shopping and end up with that stuff. When I get home I just love overwhelming feeling I get when I see all things I've bought. Actually, it's not about what satisfy me but about the feeling it gives to me.

I think I need it now.

I Hope This Could Be a Song

2009-01-26T07:57:00.004+07:00

I'm hopelessly
Staring into your eyes
Waiting for that words
To be spoken

Never
Can never happen
Nothing's gonna change
The way we used to be

I wonder
Do you feel it too?
Am I wrong?
Am I right?

Can't stop thinking about you
Every minute
Of every hour
Of every day

Don't you think that I'll be alright without you
I know that you feel it too

I always count every second
Until seeing you again
- Best Friend, Rindsberry