Somebody, Another You

Somebody break my heart
It hurts
Then you came into my life
It's beautiful
You took me away from those memories
It's a magical
You're the sweet escape
You fill the emptiness inside
I've fallen into you
I care for you
And you too
As a friend, I know
Eventually you break my heart too
It hurts
I think I need another you
To take me away and escape from you
Somebody, another you
I hope he looks like you
~ Rindsberry

Selamat Datang, Bulan

Kaki dingin.
Badan lemes.
Bibir kering.
Perut nggak enak.

I Can't

No.
I can't stop it. I can't. I just can't.

I Thought I Lost You

I can't get myself to sleep now. Just thought about something. Actually, I really don't want to think about this but my thought is what it is.

I thought I lost you.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
~ Creep, Radiohead

Twenty Something

Time flies
When you're having fun
You wake up
Another year is gone
You're twenty-one
~ Happy Birthday, The Click Five

Happy birthday to me! I'm 21 now.. Starting my twenty-something life. Well, now reminiscing of what I have done for the past one year.

Too much problem. Too much drama. Too much pain. Problem, best friends, fight, tears, and escape. Also there are lots of unexpected things happened. Crush, perfection, stupid scenarios, one of those days, and something. That's it. I just mention what popped into my head right now.

For my twenty-something life. I don't expect anything. I don't wanna be disappointed anymore because of the false hope, too high expectation, and something like that. It will feel like a gift when you get something good you don't expect, eh?

And for the last. Birthday wishes... I wish I could always finish off all the things I ever started, everything.

False Hope Makes All the Wrong Feels Right

There are some days that I feel so lonely and other days that I feel so in love.

There are times when I'm so upset but then I see you, and everything's fine. Somehow your existence is worth it, really.

It's you, it's you, you make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything
~ Everything, Michael Buble

Finally

Alhamdulillah.... My internship report has already been approved. I finally got my supervisor's signature. Also I've bought a ticket for going back home next week. Thanks God, now I just can’t hardly wait for the flight. ☺

Anyway, butterflies are coming around again. Couldn’t explain more but it makes me feel good. Sometimes, I need to feel just like this, and it’s enough. Well done, stupid scenario.

He was sunshine
I fell over my feet
Like bricks underwater
~ Oxygen, Colbie Caillat

Pretty Lazy Day

It’s such another lazy day. I don't go to the office again.

Last night I met my supervisor. I went to his house and had a presentation of my report. I thought that my report has been corrected already. Nevertheless it was very incorrect.

"Why didn't you just sign it, Sir? I need your signature, no more."

I'm too lazy to get it done right now. But I know, the more I procrastinate the longer time I have to wait to get back home.

I keep talking to myself, "DO IT. Do it. Do it!"
But my another self always replied, "Ah, let me sitting around for a while, I'll do it later."
"Come on Rind"
"Aaaaaaah... Zzzzz"
"How lazy you are!"
"Am I?"
"YES, YOU ARE!"
"Zzzzz.."
"Hey, don't you listen?"
"ZZZZZZZZZ....."

Another Lazy Monday Morning

It's yet to be determined
But the air is thick
And my hope is feeling worn
I'm missing home
~ A Plain Morning, Dashboard Confessional

Just sitting around in bed, cuddling with internship report, listening to the music, chilling out while ruined with the thoughts of wanna go home.

I don't go to the office today but my friend does. I told her that I want get done my report just at home, because there will be nothing I can do at the office and I will look so stupid. It's the second time I let her go to the office alone. Sounds egoistic, eh? Yes, I am. I know she'll be bored there.

Oh Report

Yeah, it's done. But no, it's ALMOST done, still have a bunch of Bahasa Indonesia pages to translate.

I hope I could finish it on Monday. Ah, just can't wait to have my supervisor's signature. Then I'm GOING HOME.